Wednesday, July 20, 2016

To MC, as You Become a Big Sister

I’m sorry that I won’t be just yours anymore.

I don’t really know how it’s going to be when your baby sister gets here. But my first instinct, right now, is to only want to protect you from feeling upset, neglected or unimportant in any way. It’s all I can think about.

I know I’ll get the hang of it eventually, but right now it’s difficult for me to see how I’m going to be enough for two of you. I’ve only ever been your Mama—I’ve figured that out. We’ve figured each other out.

You’re my buddy, my companion, my sidekick.

I guess I’m scared that this is all going to be too much for you—too much change, too much disruption, too much “newness.”

So, while I’m sorry that the era of just-you-and-me is coming to a close, I’m going to stop and decide to always remember this precious, beautiful time we’ve had together and be grateful that you were the one who taught me how to be someone’s mother. You, with your sweet, gentle nature, your enthusiastic and kind spirit, and your compassionate and loving heart.

What an amazing big sister you’re going to make. Your little sister is going to be thrilled when she finds out that you’re the one she got.

1 comment:

Peggy said...

Beautiful picture!!! Beautifully and touchingly written! MC will be the "rememberer" of your mothering. She will watch and listen to all the you do with and say to GL. She will pattern some of her parenting on what she saw you do and heard you say. We love you so much! You are the baby I was determined to have because I knew the unintended pressures I felt as an only child. I'm so glad you're my baby.